AND TO EVERYONE that has or will respond to this thread, I truly thank you and appreciate it. It really does mean a lot. I've kind of been sitting on this for a few months now and don't want to put it on Facebook at the risk of coming off as a complete trainwreck and failure - which I'm okay with on the Huddle, LOL. So, to have all of you giving me meaningful advice and feedback... It's awesome. It IS like the old Huddle. And I do take heed and analyze each and every thing you guys have suggested.
Don't put anything on Facebook!!
So, what do you really want to do? I think what you said was write. My advice, do not see that as an event, but a process. I had a friend tell many about many writing/blog sites, that sometimes a person had to write for free, before anything got picked up for pay. Start looking for them. Start looking for writers' workshops. In the meantime, find something, anything, to contribute to your family's income. See it as the means to an end, working toward your dream.
Identify your goal. Do not expect to reach your goal without sacrifice (i.e., Zod's post). Make a plan and identify the first steps towards the goal/dream. Be careful about setting timelines...they can be traps. Just identify steps....small ones are best.