i plan on getting a house visit this week and having him put down. Im also getting a gravestone made for when i bury him in the back yard. losing a friend like him is hard i don't know if ill have another pet for awhie.
Tell them to hurry up if possible. You are doing the right thing, doubt will creep in that you aren't, but stick with the plan.
And as for getting another, I haven't even been able to come close to doing that, and it's been 16 months.