Why is breaking off with a friend-w-benefits effecting me worse than the actual break-up from before?
Rundown: 5 months overall. Official for the first three, then broke up. I felt fine no worries. After a few weeks we became FWB after she came back. We were somewhere in between being together and f*ck buddies bc we still did couple stuff. Had a minor off period again and she came back again until I was the initiator in breaking everything off the other day.
I did this bc she took me to her fam's thanksgiving dinner party and was a complete b*tch to me. Communication had already been lessening recently but she went up and invited me. At the dinner she was flirting with taken guys and talking about all these ones who are after her. I wanted none of it and hate when women flirt with taken bros especially in front of their significant others. F*cked up especially with me there talking to her freaking grandparents and family.
Now we did the f*ck buddy route bc I'm moving and knew it wasn't going to be longterm. This was also because we had an insane amount of great sex and just wanted to keep it going. We easily had 3+ times where we spent an entire weekend in bed. I had accepted she was looking elsewhere in the meantime bc I am on my way out of town at the month's end. So why do I feel like sh*t?
I've got a rebound planned for Wednesday and another when this old flame gets back from college but my drive is diminished right now and I'm reeling something fierce. wtf.
Anyone ever have a similar situation?