Sup huddle.

[Ivan The Awesome]

So...it's been a while. Haven't been here for a bit. You know, life and poo. 

 

I'm just taking this moment to just say what's up with all of you, some I have on twitter, some on FB (select few), but I figured I'd drop in and say hello. 

 

This year has been super fuged. I mean FUBAR. For the most apparent reason of course. Good Old Covid. Some of you might remember that I made the decision to go back to school and get that degree. Yeah..what timing right? So most of this year has been fuged from the get go. I saw myself working odd jobs and finally working at a hospital that an outbreak occurred, LUCKILY, your boy didn't get the Rona. Unfortunately for a lot of my collogues, they did. Some died. I was trying to just work, get some sort of income for school, food, moms Meds, etc. Looking back at things...God damn how did I get by? Anyway..It was a rough 3 months, but I had to leave the job I had for health reasons. No my own but my mothers. She got worse from her previous condition (respiratory and Circulatory) and the more I thought about it, the more I mulled it over, given the situation I had. I don't think I would have forgiven myself if I got the virus and then gave it to her. SO in a way I was lucky twice. I left the job in July...unfortunately my mom passed away at the end of July. In her sleep. 

I was dealing with a lot of things to be honest. Depression is way too real. Then the only true love I've known in this life...is gone. I can't begin to tell you what rabbit hole i went down in my own mind and this whole new normal. FUBAR. 

I had registered for school and started school on August 6th. It was literally a week after my moms passing. In a way, focusing on school helped a lot. I just finished my third semester and I've had the highest grades in my class, I never got time to grieve, sleepless nights, papers, projects, covid. Somehow I'm still going forward. It's not easy man. to this day I still have self deprecating thoughts. I guess it's human nature? I don't know. 

So...yeah..to top it all off, I got kicked out my house by my last living relative... two weeks ago, over really stupid poo, honestly, this year can go suck a dick. I have my own place right now, but still... sometimes I wish life would stop kicking me in the balls so much. lol. 

 

I root for a team who's mascot is a black cat. What else do I expect? hahaha! Anyway I made this longer that I expected. Hope all of you are having a better time than I have this year, if you haven't, pour a cold one and drink it for me. It's almost over and next year will be a banger. Love y'all. 

[ladypanther]

So sorry to hear about your mother.  I certainly hope 2021 is a much better for you. Congrats on your success in school so far amid all this.  Hang in there and Keep Pounding.

Thanks for checking in and giving us the update.  Take care of yourself.

[Khyber53]

It will get better, so much better. Just keep hanging in there and doing  what you're doing. It might seem like you've traveled halfway through hell, but by no means do you stop now, right in the middle of it.

Run, walk, crawl, just keep going forward. You're going to come out of this stronger, better and more appreciative (and appreciated) when you get to the other side.

You've got this!

[thefuzz]

Our slogan man...just keep doing it and keep moving forward.