If God exists he must be sick and twisted.

[chknwing]

First off, sorry if the title offends anyone.  Gonna vent for a sec as I have no other avenue to do so at the moment.  I lost my faith years ago when my mom passed.  My mom had always been sick and has had cancer, polio, diabetus, CHF (Congestive Heart Failure), kidney problems, etc.  Towards the end of her life she had been struggling with CHF and her kidneys and was more or less suffering.  I prayed daily for my mom to get better and watched as she only got worse.  The last time I prayed to end my moms suffering.  One week later, my moms CHF got really bad and her kidneys were failing.  The nurses at the hospital knew my mother and everything about her.  My mom needed a breathing tube but didnt not want one.  The Dr in charge of her ordered a Xanax to calm her down so they could put in the breathing tube.  The nurse told the Dr that he could not give my mom Xanax because her blood pressure will bottom out and they will never get it back.  The Dr was ignorant and basically said hes in charge and to do what he says.  My moms blood pressure plummeted, she went into cardiac arrest and died.

My father has developed chronic CHF as well and was showing symptoms of it 2 weeks ago.  I called paramedics and he needed to go but refused.  Paramedics said the only thing I could do was wait for him to become unresponsive because they can not transport him against his will.  Yesterday morning that happened and my dad is now in ICU with CHF but also with an unknown cause of his hemoglobin only being 4.  Basically he only had 1/4th the amount of blood in his body he is suppose to have.  He needed 4 blood transfusions and the doctors are puzzled to where the blood went.

To the reason for the topic,  my father is at CMC, not a small hospital with an entire floor of ICU rooms.  My father is in the same room that that dr murdered my mom 6 years ago this month.

[stirs]

Hate you are going through the deterioration of a second parent.  Probably not a good time for advice giving, hang in there.  Enjoy any time you have with your Dad.  Losing people or seeing them sick is never easy

[Doyle]

Blaming God is a sign of immaturaty. I   Lost someone close to cancer. This experience will only make you stronger as a person.  

[stirs]

Blaming God is a sign of immaturaty. I   Lost someone close to cancer. This experience will only make you stronger as a person.  

Being emotional at a time when your remaining parent is in trouble is just that, being emotional.  Would not call it immature.  I agree that prayer, God, sickness, etc are not push button issues or cures, but adding insult, or what looks like insult, is not the best route to take

[Mayor Qumiby]

Damn chknwing hate to hear what you're going through.  hope things make a turn for the better.

 

Keep pounding bro.

[NCstoner420]

Life really sucks some times and other times it's great. Personally I don't believe there is some thing out there in charge of everything. If that's what you believe then stick to it and figure out how to make the best of our situation. Like others have said spend all your time with your father, I wish I had this knowledge when I was in your shoes. 

[Inimicus]

I came to the conclusion a long time ago that if I was going to choose to believe in God that I had to also believe that (s)he was an entity that didn't answer prayers.  I couldn't reconcile a deity that ignored the pleas of someone who was trying to "save" a parent or child or spouse in favor of someone who was getting a 200 yard rushing game with 4 TDs.

 

I choose to believe in a supreme being, but I don't think he/she gives a fug what we want.

[frash.exe]

Sorry to hear that dude. Seems like you've been through a lot of rough poo. If you need to talk, let me know and I'll clear my PM box that's been full since 2010.

 

I don't want to get into a debate about this but I've been off the Jesus juice ever since my church going neighborly uncle died in a house fire. Also I know too many people my age who are religious and are self serving people with no real philanthropic views, and they brandish their little cross or St. Gerard like it's some kind of get out of hell free card. I try to be a better person than them and I don't have a faith. It's called the athiest's wager. Look it up. Chknwng touched on it in the title.

[Chaos]

Sorry to hear this buddy, prayers up for your dad that he'll pull through.

[Ja Rhule]

Sorry bro, that's sucks big time.  Hang in there :(

Sometimes poo like this just happens with no real explanation. 

[arbnranger]

Hey brother sorry to hear. 

As many differences as we all have, that is the one thing that binds us. No matter where we are from or what we look like we ALL have suffering. No way around that. I've had a lot of bad cases in my life friends/family but what's important is that you know others have been there to and I feel for you. It's  unfortunate but it's the life cycle. We can all get through it together as long as we know we got someone. Keep pounding brother. 

As I like to say .. Keep grindin! 

[Jangler]

Sorry for this, but poo happens all the time, not to trivialize it at all. Good and bad things to good and bad people. We may never find out the reasons, but by then the questions won't matter anymore.

[Jackofalltrades]

There is a God and he loves you and your parents. I pray for a quick and absolute healing of your father. Is there anything I/we can do for you?

 

[PandaPancake]

I lost my faith at 19 when we found a mass grave filled with people executed in the back of the head. At the bottom we found the children they executed first. In front of their parents.